Seems as though clean eating foods are the order of the day. So much so, some people are taking their eating to a whole other unhealthy level called orthorexia nervosa.
It means having an obsessive behavior towards food.
Recently, I stumbled upon an article on orthorexia nervosa and as I was reading, it dawned on me, I had this very problem about 20 years ago.
I don’t know if there was a name for it then, or if it was even something discovered and diagnosed. Anorexia nervosa and bulimia nervosa was definitely around then and still is today, but orthorexia nervosa?
Obviously, I am a woman ahead of her time!
When I look back to those days of nothing but clean eating foods. One would have thought I was just being careful and conscious of my health, I certainly did.
My partner would often say to me, ‘you are hard work when it comes to food’.
It always surprised me, when he would say that. I was of the opinion what I was doing was a good thing. After reading the article on orthorexia I realize now, I definitely had an eating problem.
And I can see it being a problem for many other people more so today than it was back then.
It is easy to see why people take their eating habits so seriously, there are so many questions today about everything we eat.
The chemicals in our food cause so much concern when it comes to cancers and other health problems. Is it any wonder someone will go to the extreme of wanting to keep their body healthy and only enjoy clean eating foods.
Clean Eating Foods And Orthorexia Nervosa
I really did make life hard for myself. I never all those years ago would ever have thought I had a problem.
After reading the symptoms of orthorexia nervosa, I had them all.
Eating out was something I avoided, as I felt I couldn’t trust anyone to prepare the food as I would. I was very meticulous when it came to washing everything I ate.
A friend said to me one day ‘how come you never eat anything when you come to my place’? Whenever someone offered me food, I would always say I wasn’t hungry and had eaten before I arrived.
I was as thin as a beanpole and eating clean foods pretty much consumed me.
Supplements were my best friend, still are to some extent. I just don’t obsess over them as often and I don’t buy so many. When I think back to all the money I spent on them my mind boggles.
Back in those days, the internet was around, yet it wasn’t used for gaining information as it is today. I gleaned all my information from health magazines and books.
There was a health food shop close to where I worked at the time. I was in there at least 3 to 4 times a week, looking for the latest supplement I had just read up on and checking out all the clean eating foods they had to offer.
Spirulina and wheat grass were two of my favorites, and I wouldn’t eat a meal unless I had taken either one half hour beforehand.
Then I fell pregnant and I relaxed a little and put on some much-needed weight. After the birth of my child, eating clean foods was back on the menu.
In hindsight, I can see now my eating habits probably contributed to my depression. I was very unhappy at that time and I think for me, taking control of everything I put in my mouth was a way of feeling as though I did have some control over my life.
Eating Clean Foods What Are They?
Everything and anything that is fresh. Fruits and vegetables, organic meats, poultry, fresh fish, and seafood.
Water, organic green tea, other herbal teas and fruit smoothies.
My eating behaviour was certainly extreme, I wouldn’t drink a cup of coffee, I never touched alcohol, nothing passed my lips that I didn’t feel was good for me. In fact, I was so concerned with food my diet was actually quite restrained and there were a lot of foods I was missing out on.
Would I have looked the picture of health? I doubt it.
My Relationship With Clean Eating Foods
Now, things are very different. I still enjoy a healthy diet. However, I am much more relaxed and will happily eat out at a restaurant if it means I don’t have to cook dinner! I love a cup of coffee in the mornings, will drink red wine, eat a biscuit, and bake a cake.
My relationship with food and myself is in stark contrast to what it was. I now have a healthy attitude towards food, and enjoy a huge variety.
Getting over my obsessiveness towards food happened over time. I think having the kids helped, and growing older. I got through it and that’s all that matters, I will never stop my love of healthy food and wanting to remain forever looking younger.
At least now, I am much healthier looking and that’s what really matters.
Do you feel you need to control what you eat? Ask yourself one question, “am I happy”? If the answer is no, don’t use food to give you the illusion you have control. Because you don’t I know I didn’t, being happy was still a long way off.
Eating clean foods give you a great feeling, there is nothing better than looking after your body and health.
Although, there is a fine line, which is easily crossed and if you are not enjoying what you are doing than what’s the point?
Everything in moderation, find the balance. Enjoy clean eating foods and enjoy your life.